Not many things intimidate me, I’m too indifferent to welcome such an emotion. Somehow LinkedIn has managed to intimidate me, well, not the site itself but all of the job titles and endless posts of accomplishment. It’s like a world of friendly competition, which can certainly be good. The part that intimidates me is that I don’t have an inkling of experience related to my desired field. Where everyone else is diving deep into their careers, I’m still on my way to the watering hole.
I’ve been fixing up some things on my LinkedIn profile and working on my resume (which is really just a curriculum vitae). My employment history isn’t quite impressive and I’ve had some short-lived jobs that aren’t even worth mentioning.
I searched for any snippet of college volunteer work I could to dazzle my resume. The resume looked patchy. And forced. Really forced. My mom told me that I don’t want to appear “overqualified,” which is something I’ve gotten during a rejection before.
That was something to think about… You might think that listing a bunch of unique work experiences would make you stand out. Adding every gem of desirability is actually the crime of over-accessorizing. It’s a distraction from the outfit and it makes you look…silly. Silly because that’s a nice word for crazy.
We want to wear every good quality on the outside to convince others of our value. We’re always selling ourselves by what’s visible and tangible. But what message does all of that self qualifying send out? Maybe pride, maybe insecurity, maybe dishonesty, maybe neuroticism.
On the outside, we can become pretty good looking Christians. Not being involved in obviously sinful things, dressing modestly, listening to Praise music, reading the Bible–clearly, I do my Christian checklist things. Yadda yadda.
When you get called back for interviews, the paper loses its significance. The employer is now looking deeper to figure you out, the dazzling words on the resume mean nothing if the personality does not match up. If the personal character doesn’t match the written characteristics.
I’ve been asking God to grow me, so I went to a Holy Spirit service at church thinking I would be getting a new Holy assignment. Leveling up in my walk. God called me to an interview. If I want more spiritual responsibility, I gotta show Him I can handle it.
He asked me about my heart, in regards to a person I don’t particularly enjoy. I don’t enjoy the person at all, actually.
And I tried to avoid His conviction by looking through all my accessories. But I read the Bible, I come to church, I share the Word with my friends, why do I have to give this particular person another chance?
We can try to justify our ugly inside by prettying up the outside but we’re just fooling ourselves. God knows our heart, there’s nothing you can hide from Him.
Unforgiveness might not be a word but it is a sin. It’s easy to conceal our wicked hearts, keep our insulting thoughts to ourselves, but there’s always Somebody watching.
Somebody who’s going to hire you and prepare you for the next job. Only when you stop trying to fluff your resume and become honest about who you really are and what really needs to be revised.
“My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.”